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my life (one year later)

Wed, 28 May 2008 20:53:49 GMT

sooo my friends ... hello again

as you can see i have not been here, im really bad at journaling. HERE GOES!...

so i have basc lived in medfield for like two weeks. Made some chill new friends... i am in the process of saducing a 17 year old and i must say i am having a fun time. I am pretty sure i have not spent 24 hours in my home. There really isnt much else to say.. I will try to update more i guess... BYE!

OH THE HAM

Tue, 15 May 2007 04:53:01 GMT

soo today i basc didnt do much woke up around one. The after my dad left for work i started to pick up the house before my mami got home. I went to the eye doctors OMG so my new eye doctor is fucking hot! LOOOVE HIM! so chill and wicked young oh and my prescription hasnt changed much in two years which is good news. But my dad got this new insurence that covers my eye wear and basc is a steal with all the pay. So i picked out these wicked cute COACH glasses omg cant fucking wait!

So later i went to framingham, maddie, cassie, joyce and I were suppose to chill and catch up but joyce couldnt come last minute so it ended up being me lizz, cassie, and maddie. We all talked about guys and how much shit has happened this past year. Oh and ofcourse watched the game HELLO thats a given. 7-1 fuck yes Boston. So were planning on meeting again tomorrow and im going to get dropped off so i can spend the night.

OH RIGHT so cassie and I are planning a trip to Boston to see a game i think we chose her birthday because were playing the yankees that day. OMG cant fucking wait! Taking the train in and going to the game im sooo stoked.

Have i mentioned how muchi miss my framingham friends. Theyre basc my fave ever!

My First Few Days Home

Sun, 13 May 2007 03:00:37 GMT

So i am finaly back in the 508... in other words Eastern Mass... Or you could just say im in Milford.

Lets start from the beggining when i was moving out i kept trying to call my mami and she couldnt hear me i assumed she was just dumb and didnt know how to use my dads cell phone because his is a little different. But later my friend Maddie, then Kelly tried calling me and no one could hear me and they would all eventually hang up. I was like WTF is going on and why does everyones phone SUCK. Well it turns out it was my phone. I called my house and my moms cell phone and no one could hear me. So i told my mom my phone was busted and i went to the Cingular store to see what they could do for me. The guy opened my phone and asked me if i dropped my phone in the toilet and i was like " NOO, it was raining pretty bad this morning when i walked back from class it makes sence now. i guess i got it wet walking back to my dorm" He looked at me wierd and was like well you sure you didnt drop it in a puddle. UM hello i think i would know if i dropped it in a puddle and i wouldnt be so fucking shocked. So in the end he said he couldnt do anything for me because i had a past due bill but my mom had paid for it earlier and it hadnt gone through yet so i had to wait. He told me to blow dry my phone and see what happens. I went home and did what he said well what a fuck face i dropped my SIM Card down the drain. Fucking blow dryer and stupid phone man who needed to get the pole out of his ass and not assume im fucking stupid and didnt recall dropping my phone in water and then wonder why it was broken. Well i was pissed. Later nailer was playing on my laptop and she like managed to pull the T off my keyboard. I got in a huge fight with my mom about it and how i was soo pissed because of my phone, and my computer now and i had just recently ordered a new keyboard and i just dont have the money for a new one right now. WELL like a typical mother she blew up and threw in my face how im complaining about money well lets think about how much she does and pays and blah blah blah.

So i took a nap.

When i woke up my older sister called me to the kitchen where i found...
The most beautiful ice-cream princess cake
and presents!

well in the end i got pretty purses and an awesome shirt.

I ended up fixing my laptop the key wasnt broken but just fell apart. And my dad got the SIM out of the sink and my phone is all fixed so hell yes.

oh and i have been trying to find a Beckett shirt in my size and no one had it or only had Matsuzaka, or just really large sizes. So i got fed up and i ordered one off ebay. Im fucking stoked for it.

Its my what?!

Thu, 10 May 2007 16:59:29 GMT

so today is my big 1-9 nothing special. But its great seeing everyone post on my FB wall. PEOPLE CARE! weoh!

anyways yesterday is why im really posting.

kelly and i went to stop&shop to get some stuff to make some pasta salad for my birthday. We went out side to catch the bus back and apperently were dumb because we got onto the wrong bus and ended up at Holyoke Community College. So we had to call cameron to come get us. And we came back i started watching the game and then hung out in the common room while kelly made the pasta salad. They somehow convinced me to go to a bon-fire and i met a few more of kelly's friends from home it was chill. We came back at like 3am i was exhausted and all i wanted to do was sleep because i had my last math class at 8am. Oh which by the way it was not today it was tuesday so i freaked out called my professor and everything worked out fine.

All my family members called to wish me a happy birthday it was beautiful i ♥ them sooooo much! Today is going to be a good day. Packing with the roomates because im heading home tomorrow and prob just hanging out and doing what be do best!

Thanks to everyone for making this past year a great one. Maybe this one will be just as great!

Mon, 07 May 2007 02:34:26 GMT

ok so nicole and i should be doing our paper for tomorrow but were NOT!

we decided we were hungry so we went to subway and on our way out of our dorm we saw our neighbor hallisey and she made the weirdest sound at us, but its continuous quite hours due to finals this week so i nicole and i told her to be quite. But then Trace no E came out ( go to Nicole's LJ for details on Trace no E) and was like "what the hell was that?!" And i had no idea what to say because she is such a creep that i looked at her and said "ummmmmmmmmm i fell" and ran off and she was like "oh ok" ...

that woman scares me!

LAST NIGHT!

Sun, 06 May 2007 19:57:02 GMT

so last night nicole and i decided to finish off the booze in my fridge because we were celebrating in Kelly's Honor ( it was her birthday on friday) and we also need to have the fridge empty by wednesday. So anyways i had a very good mellow night, it was perfect. I absolutly looooove my roomates! The end.

so now about my dreams.

1st i had a dream that one of my friends asked me if i was mad at them and i asked them if i should be and they said no. soo i told them that in that case i wasnt!

2nd i lived in this town and all the cars werent working. So no one could leave and wierd shit was happening, so me and my 3 friends (who i have no idea who they are!) we went looking for a way out and we saw this buisiness building and we went in asking for water because we were really thirsty. But they were looking at us wierd and it turns out they were the ones in charge of all the bad things happening so we all tried to run away but i couldnt run because it was a dream so i walked. Then we fixed the cars and guess who shows up! SHIA LABEOUF!

wait go back in my dream i wanted KFC! ok now we can go back to shia.

so anyways he was apperently my boyfriend, but he was mad at me because my ex boyfriend from last summer said he missed me so i made plans to hang out. and apperently shia is a jealous boy. and so he decided he would make me jealous with my neighbor erin and she was soo all over him. but he had an awesome phone where you could watch movies and stuff. but we never got a chance to move one because dream # 3 came around.

3rd dream i was at my house and jonathan papelbon lived with us and he was i guess my older brother, and he was being an ass to me because he had tickets to his games and he so wouldnt give me any of them. what an asshole. and i so said i could get him free movie tickets and he said he hated the movies. but c'mon what a fair trade tickets for tickets hello what a rudie. But then he tried being all brotherly to me and i was so not into it. The END!

and those were my dreams.

weeeekend

Sun, 06 May 2007 05:18:05 GMT

im drunk!

then end!

uhhh

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 01:58:29 GMT

Have i ever told you how much i love boston?!
and how much i love the Red Sox!!!

yeah you heard me im a Red Sox Fan whatchya going to do about it. And the best part is im dragging nicole with me haha

we have had a good week im happy that we worked things out and as most of you already know i cant be mad at people its just soooo fucking hard for me. Were all happy again! There is literally like two weeks left of school left and im freaking out i have no idea what i am going to do im stressing so fucking bad! So which means im dreading for my birthday because once that comes it means were all done like just thinking about it makes me want to cry.

This year has been a ride let me tell you. Im ready to start a new year and just start fresh and not be a freshman anymore. OH and i just want to say that i am sooo over the whole Jeff thing so im thanking GOD that he didnt choose me because id prob hurt him. His girlfriend is a crazy looking bitch though hahaha oh my god i look at her and it makes me so happy! This summer is going to be all about having fun and working my ass off to make some cash.

this is why

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 16:58:56 GMT

so the only reason im mad is because you lied. I thought you were better then that and we were close enough for you to be honest. The past week all you have done is push me away and clearly im going to support you im not heartless hello i know thats what you need. But you lieing what the fuck it makes me feel like crap because it made me feel like you couldnt trust me or you just assumed id be upset... I understand i say things that hurt your feelings like assuming your not going to go out with us or out to dinner or something because why should i get my hopes up that your going to do it... it would just be a dissapointment. I admit i would of been upset that when you told me the truth but i wouldnt be angry now.... the point is you dont even know why because i know you didnt think much about it thats what pisses me off more. All i wanted was an apoligy but its not even worth it anymore.

i had an interesting weekend

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 05:20:17 GMT

HELLO!!

i havnt posted in this shit in like oh i dont know months?

well anyways my weekend started off pretty sweet nicole and I decided to come home for the weekend, brI brI came to come pick us up and on the way back we went and smoked in the industrial area of milford i get well super fucked.

I got home and was extremely confused on why my sister was home but her car wasnt outside. I walked in and saw my cousin and i freaked i was like "OMG HELLO!!!!!!!!" yeah just like that. her baby was over and it didnt process that was why nanuk was on the porch crying so i opened it and everyone screamed but all i could do was laugh. but then i thought oh shit they KNOW so i ran downstairs washed my hands and put some pretty smells on and ran back upstairs. They handed me the baby and i was like oh shit what if the baby inhales it what would a baby do if it were high. and i thought about that for a bit. well my mom made me go get the chinese that was fun, but brielle calls me to tell me the kid i was into got a g.f i was sooo pissed but i thought it didnt process until a few hours later where i basc cried all night.

Saturday night nicole and i went to cassies house for kerry's birthday. That was a pretty sweet time i played a few rounds of beer pong and i got a little you know tipsy... haha ok JJ i was drunk. After we started to sober up i smoked and got fucked out of my mind. That was an interesting ride home it was like an adventure that i had already been on but it was a surprise around every corner!

i had a good weekend i mean the whole jeff thing w.e i knew nothing would happen him and Ill get over it ... its better this way anyways..oh did i mention i talked to mark the other night after the party.. yeah that was a good one we were suppose to hang out tonight but umm stupid me forgot to tell him i wasnt on campus. oops!

some drive!!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 00:03:50 GMT

sooo we drove and drove and drove and we got super lost and we didnt know where the fuck we were... while steve was in the back with a wicked bad bloody nose and i had cotton mouth and i was freaking and erin had no gas!...

but i suppose its funny now!

oh you know... Dont You?

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 05:13:24 GMT

So here we go.. a new diary.. woah this is ridiculous… like honestly I have done this whole im gunna do a web journal people can read it and feel bad for me because my life is so dramatic and blah blah blah blah blah… but what evs I will just continue my quest of writing and letting the inner me out… so here I come…

I sit I listen and I feel… I see what is around me yet i don’t see it at all… its as if everything is different in my eyes. like for example like my roommate said she can see green but I don’t see green at all I see blue… I sit there and watch and watch and see the world through my eyes… but that is soo gay.. why cant this be simple like I honestly want to know… I just want to walk out my door and realize or better yet just know that today is gunna be a good day and ill know exactly where I am suppose to end up and who I am suppose to end up with. that would be great. but instead I sit there and over analyze everything, everyone around me tends to have someone they want to be with and they are happy with. the guys who prob want to be with me I would never consider being with but then again I would never know that because were all in the same group, which is we are too lame and scared to step forward and let the other person know how we feel. But instead I figure I know what I want in life but I don’t know what I need in life.. does that make sense?

Well what ever this is the most pointless thing I have ever written, im basically in that stage where I kinda want to have someone to talk to other than my friends but at the same time I tend to push a lot of people away only because im stubborn and I don’t know how to react to certain things. Ok now im thinking too much! but I basically want to know if im going to be old and lonely?... woah why would anyone choose that sort of life… but then again its not like they chose it its just the card they were dealt. WAIT isn’t the point there are animals on earth is so they can procreate? Well then why would there be certain ones that live without doing what they were suppose to do, ok obviously I am not saying that sex is what matters but well what ever I completely give up on this point because in the end everyone will run in circles and that is not what I wanted I wanted answers!

I know i tend to ask questions NO ONE can answer